Flight School

Flight school is hard.

Learning how to fly takes time.
It's not a lesson learned in one night.
Not in three, not in four or five,
but in months, sometimes years.

One must learn how to do the job right,
or they will spiral to the ground.

Some will doubt you,
but don't heed their lies.
They tried to learn long ago,
but impatience kept them from soaring.

You have the power of an eagle,
and are as delicate as a butterfly.
Follow the owl, and heed his every word.

Flight school is hard.
Learning how to fly takes time.
It's not a lesson learned in one night.
Not in three, not in four or five,
but in months, sometimes years.

Today is not your day,
and tomorrow does not look bright, either.
Your day is closer than it seems.
When it comes, seize the opportunity,
and soar.

I'm Not Going to be a Christian Anymore

I have proclaimed myself to be a Christian, but I need to be honest. I have this fear that some of you may compare my actions and words to those of my savior, Jesus Christ. It is rare for my actions to reflect him, and I need to apologize to you for portraying falsities.

Yes, I attend church. I am a leader in my youth group, and attend a Bible club on my campus. I went to a college with chapel requirements my freshman year. I worked at a Christian camp, and served on mission trips. I don’t swear, or look at porn. I have no experience with the taste of alcohol or euphoria that comes with smoking pot. I’m pro-life, and disagree with the theory of evolution. I also need to tell you that none of these things make me Christian.

Some people see Christianity as being a bunch of boring rules you have to follow. I fear it is people like me who tell this lie to the masses. In high school, if you looked at my schedule you would think I was a boring Bible thumper who never participated in anything that involved the f word. Why would someone who spends three days a week participating in church functions have any idea what the f word actually is? I have had more fun participating in these actions because they all involve the f word: fun. You might understand where I'm coming from. You might not. I can’t tell you what to feel because I’m not you, but I wish you could. I never will be you. I’m not writing this to tell you what I have and haven’t done so you can see me as a great person. I’m telling you so you can see my faults. I am one of the worst sinners you will ever meet in your life.

Here is the truth: Christianity is having a relationship with the creator of the universe. It’s having someone to run to when you’ve had the worst day of your life. It’s having someone to share joy with. It’s having someone tell you things are going to be okay, even when they feel like they won’t. It is the epitome of a best friend. You don’t have to worry about him telling your secrets or sleeping with your best friend. Would you like to know one of the best parts of this relationship? It’s a relationship based on love- the love a father willing to die for you kind of love. Keeping this relationship growing on a daily basis is what makes you a Christian. It's a far cry from a list of rules. It's not magic either. Trust me on this one-becoming a Christian doesn't make your troubles disappear. It does make them easier to conquer, however.

Here is an ugly truth: I’ve been neglecting this relationship like you wouldn’t believe. It’s the neglect of this relationship that causes me to be a bad witness. I’m false representation, believe it or not. I’ve been living a life that isn’t even close to proper representation of Christ is, but I’ve still put on the Christian t-shirt. It is with this reason that I am apologizing to you. I’ve lied to all of you in the worst way possible, and the only thing I know to do is ask forgiveness, so that’s what I’m doing.

I know I've made a few statements that sound similar to, “I’ve been bad, but I’m not going to act like that again. I’m a good Christian now.” Here’s the deal. I’m not going to be a Christian anymore. I’m going to be a growing Christian, and this time I’m going to be honest. Feel free to keep me in check if you wish.

With love,
Katy

Hey There!

Wow...I'd guess it's been a while since I've blogged. Oops. Okay so here be the rundown on what has happened in the past few months. Here's a pretty good list of important experiences for your viewing pleasure.

1. I worked at a summer camp. It most definitely was one of the best experience of my 18 years. I had some awesome campers I have some new brothers and sisters! God taught me so much in those eight weeks. Some of these lessons were lessons I have learned in the past and forgotten, or become apathetic towards. Others were new, and opened my eyes to the amazingness that is my Daddy, and how I love him so.

My camp family

2. I left my comfort that was H-town to find search for new horizons...?? Eh. I'm not sure how my thoughts toward it can be expressed properly. Here is what I do know: as much as I loved it there, I have this feeling that God has so much more for me and I want to find what ever it is. I haven't been doing a good job of searching for it though. This is something I am working on. I need to make him my rock, my all. I moved back home to attend a community college, and it feels like I made the wrong decision. I know I'm here for a reason. I may never get the answer to that question here on Earth, and I need to come to terms with that statement.

3. I'm looking into participating in a discipleship training school called Youth With a Mission (YWAM). I'm constantly consumed with the thought that I am here on this Earth to make an impact. I want to change this world; to change people's lives. I want to do this in any means possible. Perhaps a college education is not a part of God's plan for me right now. I'm not saying that I should not become educated, and that an education is meaningless. I just feel like each time I try it, I have a terrible time. Maybe leaving is what I'm supposed to do, or maybe in staying and toughing it out, I'll continue to learn lessons. Please pray that I will find guidance.

4. My youth group is starting up again, and I'm a legit leader this year. (I was one last year, but I was never there, so it didn't really count). I'm not going to lie. I'm nervous. There are a lot of major transitions going on at my church, and I'm not sure how many of these kids are responding to it. Our new curriculum has us going over the salvation message each month, and I'm really excited. Please pray that God works in marvelous ways through these kids.

5. I realized my blog name contains a grammatical error. I'm not sure how it took a year for me to figure it out. I'm sure all the legit spaniards on this website are laughing at me, and my fail Spanish. OH WELL. Some times I try and succeed, and other times I try and fail.

Soooooo....this is all the hub-bub from my life. I'm going to attempt at making this a photo bloggythingy like I said I would, so here be a picture! Feel free to critique or what not if you wish. I'm a fan of these shots, and I hope you are too!



Happiness is...
a phone conversation with people you love who no longer live with you. <3